fadingaways

My head starts to pound

My vision begins to blur

My stomach starts to ace

I feel like I need to hurl



My body starts to shake

My teeth begin to chatter

My eyes begin to cloud over

as my world starts to shatter



Tears cascade from my swollen hazel eyes

as I silently whisper goodbye

My body hits the ground

Nothing makes a sound



My body goes still

the world begins to spin

I just coundn't win

My eyes start to close

My heart begins to slow

The pain begins to fade

As my breath starts to go...

I know a girl

whose life is full of pain

she cries so many tears



When you look into her eyes

Her beautiful, hazel eyes

All you see is pain, hatred, and loneliness



No one excepts her

Nobody tries

Everyone Hates her

Because of her painful eyes



When you look into them

you feel her pain

you feel her hatred

and you feel how lonely she is



No one excepts her

Nobody Tries

Everyone hates her

Because of her painful eyes

She sits in the corner

hiding her tears

she wipes her eyes

hoping no one saw her cry



She remembers how her parents would fight

They'd scream and shout

They'd never cut it out

ALl they did was argue



She remembers how her boyfriend

use to abuse her

Hit her and shake her

He'd call her names

then everything changed



She remembers how she messed up her life

By drugs and Alcohol

It was better then a knife

She hurt so much but no one seemed to care



She sits in the corner

hiding her tears

she wipes her eyes

hoping no one saw her cry

Sitting in silence
Alone in the dark
she sits in the corner
trying to hide

Trying to hide
from all her fears
trying to run
from all the pain

She bows her head
as the tears start to fall
she hits her head
against the hard wall

She can't take it anymore
the pain is just to great
she grabs the knife
but then she waits...

She asks herself
if this is what she wanted
her heart says yes
but her mind screams no

She drops the knife
and runs away
The tears start to fall
she hit her head hard on the wall

the blood starts to fall
her breathing tarts to slow
and its finally the end of it all

There is this girl in my class
who tries to hide her past
She sits all alone
her head bowed low
So no one will see
the tears slipping
from her sad, hazel eyes

She has no friends
But she doesn't see to care
She wishes it would end
because the pain is too much to bare

She won't say a word
about her awful past
Nobod knows
that her father use to beat her
He'd come home drunk
hit her again and again
She doesn't tell a soul
so no one will ever know

She doesn't tell people
that she once was raped
her innocence taken away in a blur
She refuses to talk
talk about her horrible past.

She doesn't tell anyone that
she still cuts
She figures no on will care
The pain is too much to bear

She thinks nobody cares
because no one dares
to help her
She bleeds to numb the pain

There is this girl in my class
who tries to hide her past
She sits all alone
Her had bowed low
so no one will see...
The girl is me

I can't believe you
invaded my life
I said I didn't like you
But of course you wouldn't listen

What I said
I ment
I do not love you
I do not like you
I just want you to go away

Dad, believe me when I say this,
I hate you with all my guts
I'd kill you if I had the chance
Don't doubt me cause I would

You never seem to go away
You always have to follow me
I hate it so much
But believe me I hate you more.

I hate the way you walk
I hate the way you talk
I even hate the way you eat
Dad why can't you see?
I never wanted you in my life
I don't want mum to stay your wife

I hate you so much
Yet you don't see
Your killing me slowly
Dad, believe me
I hate you so fucking much

Daddy I'm sorry I had to do this
But it was the only way
You and Mommy were always fighting
Leaving me to take care of my sisters

Daddy I'm only 13
I can't take all the stress or pressure
You always depended on me
What was I suppose to do?

I couldn't cry because I know that's
Weakness in your eyes
I couldn't scream because you hurt me

Daddy i'm sorry I did this
But I couldn't find a way out
You always complained about Mommy
And you left my sisters in tears

Daddy why did you do this?
Why did you make me feel this way?
Daddy I'm only 13
but you treat me like
I'm the person you complain to
But Daddy I just wanted you
To treat me like your daughter

Daddy all you ever did
Was scream at me and mommy
You accused Mommy of cheating
When she loved you so dearly
Daddy, you hurt me and mommy over and over again

Daddy i'm sorry I killed myself
But I couldn't take it anymore
You put so much pressure on me
That it was nothing when I dug that knife into my vein
Daddy you will never see
What you did to Mommy and me

Daddy I love you dearly
But you tore this family apart
Mommy and me were always crying
And then you would get angry
And you would scream and shout

Daddy all you ever did was yell
And me and my sisters tried to talk to you
You thought all of this was Mommy's fault
But its not
Its yours

Daddy I'm sorry I had to do this
But you caused me so much pain
I couldn't cry or yell
I had to act like I was tough
Without me Mommy and my sisters
Wouldn't have made it through

Daddy if you don't stop
You will lose more then me
Because of you
I took my life
You should have known better
Then to lean on me.

Cold and alone
Dark and depressed
She waits at home
dreading the minute
When he walks through that door
Wincing in pain
She limps up the stairs
Trying to hide
Wishing to die

His fist hits her again
Her back into the door was slammed
She shows no fear
As she looks him in the eye
She raised her head, her head up high
Raising her voice, asking him why
He smacks her again
Dark blood on his hands
Her body limp on the floor
Her final wish granted
She wished she would die
Her life is now in the past

Cold and alone
Dark and depressed
He sits at home
Dreading his past.