urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fadingaways fadingaways fadingaways 2006-06-14T18:44:42Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fadingaways:2480 2006-06-14T18:44:42Z 2006-06-14T18:44:42Z Shut up My head starts to pound <br /><br />My vision begins to blur<br /><br />My stomach starts to ace<br /><br />I feel like I need to hurl<br /><br /> <br /><br />My body starts to shake<br /><br />My teeth begin to chatter<br /><br />My eyes begin to cloud over<br /><br />as my world starts to shatter<br /><br /> <br /><br />Tears cascade from my swollen hazel eyes<br /><br />as I silently whisper goodbye<br /><br />My body hits the ground<br /><br />Nothing makes a sound<br /><br /> <br /><br />My body goes still<br /><br />the world begins to spin<br /><br />I just coundn't win<br /><br />My eyes start to close<br /><br />My heart begins to slow<br /><br />The pain begins to fade<br /><br />As my breath starts to go... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fadingaways:2121 2006-06-14T18:42:38Z 2006-06-14T18:42:38Z I'm not dead-Pink I know a girl<br /><br />whose life is full of pain<br /><br />she cries so many tears<br /><br /> <br /><br />When you look into her eyes<br /><br />Her beautiful, hazel eyes<br /><br />All you see is pain, hatred, and loneliness<br /><br /> <br /><br />No one excepts her<br /><br />Nobody tries<br /><br />Everyone Hates her<br /><br />Because of her painful eyes<br /><br /> <br /><br />When you look into them<br /><br />you feel her pain<br /><br />you feel her hatred<br /><br />and you feel how lonely she is<br /><br /> <br /><br />No one excepts her<br /><br />Nobody Tries<br /><br />Everyone hates her<br /><br />Because of her painful eyes urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fadingaways:1962 2006-06-14T18:41:07Z 2006-06-14T18:41:07Z All or Nothing She sits in the corner<br /><br />hiding her tears<br /><br />she wipes her eyes<br /><br />hoping no one saw her cry<br /><br /> <br /><br />She remembers how her parents would fight<br /><br />They'd scream and shout<br /><br />They'd never cut it out<br /><br />ALl they did was argue<br /><br /> <br /><br />She remembers how her boyfriend<br /><br />use to abuse her<br /><br />Hit her and shake her<br /><br />He'd call her names<br /><br />then everything changed<br /><br /> <br /><br />She remembers how she messed up her life<br /><br />By drugs and Alcohol<br /><br />It was better then a knife<br /><br />She hurt so much but no one seemed to care<br /><br /> <br /><br />She sits in the corner<br /><br />hiding her tears<br /><br />she wipes her eyes<br /><br />hoping no one saw her cry urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fadingaways:1580 2006-04-22T18:58:02Z 2006-04-22T18:58:02Z Sitting in silence<br />Alone in the dark<br />she sits in the corner<br />trying to hide<br /><br />Trying to hide<br />from all her fears<br />trying to run<br />from all the pain<br /><br />She bows her head <br />as the tears start to fall<br />she hits her head<br />against the hard wall<br /><br />She can't take it anymore<br />the pain is just to great<br />she grabs the knife<br />but then she waits...<br /><br />She asks herself <br />if this is what she wanted<br />her heart says yes<br />but her mind screams no<br /><br />She drops the knife<br />and runs away<br />The tears start to fall<br />she hit her head hard on the wall<br /><br />the blood starts to fall<br />her breathing tarts to slow <br />and its finally the end of it all urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fadingaways:1153 2006-04-22T18:45:47Z 2006-04-22T18:45:47Z The Truth: -Good Charlotte There is this girl in my class<br />who tries to hide her past<br />She sits all alone<br />her head bowed low<br />So no one will see<br />the tears slipping<br />from her sad, hazel eyes<br /><br />She has no friends<br />But she doesn't see to care<br />She wishes it would end<br />because the pain is too much to bare<br /><br />She won't say a word<br />about her awful past<br />Nobod knows <br />that her father use to beat her<br />He'd come home drunk <br />hit her again and again<br />She doesn't tell a soul<br />so no one will ever know<br /><br />She doesn't tell people<br />that she once was raped<br />her innocence taken away in a blur<br />She refuses to talk<br />talk about her horrible past.<br /><br />She doesn't tell anyone that <br />she still cuts<br />She figures no on will care<br />The pain is too much to bear<br /><br />She thinks nobody cares<br />because no one dares<br />to help her<br />She bleeds to numb the pain<br /><br />There is this girl in my class<br />who tries to hide her past<br />She sits all alone<br />Her had bowed low<br />so no one will see...<br />The girl is me urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fadingaways:964 2006-04-18T23:27:03Z 2006-04-18T23:27:03Z Every time we touch I can't believe you<br />invaded my life<br />I said I didn't like you<br />But of course you wouldn't listen<br /><br />What I said<br />I ment<br />I do not love you<br />I do not like you<br />I just want you to go away<br /><br />Dad, believe me when I say this,<br />I hate you with all my guts<br />I'd kill you if I had the chance<br />Don't doubt me cause I would<br /><br />You never seem to go away<br />You always have to follow me<br />I hate it so much<br />But believe me I hate you more.<br /><br />I hate the way you walk<br />I hate the way you talk<br />I even hate the way you eat<br />Dad why can't you see?<br />I never wanted you in my life<br />I don't want mum to stay your wife<br /><br />I hate you so much<br />Yet you don't see<br />Your killing me slowly<br />Dad, believe me<br />I hate you so fucking much urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fadingaways:546 2006-04-12T22:39:11Z 2006-04-12T22:39:11Z Good Charlotte: I just wanna live Daddy I'm sorry I had to do this<br />But it was the only way<br />You and Mommy were always fighting<br />Leaving me to take care of my sisters<br /><br />Daddy I'm only 13<br />I can't take all the stress or pressure<br />You always depended on me<br />What was I suppose to do?<br /><br />I couldn't cry because I know that's<br />Weakness in your eyes<br />I couldn't scream because you hurt me<br /><br />Daddy i'm sorry I did this<br />But I couldn't find a way out<br />You always complained about Mommy<br />And you left my sisters in tears<br /><br />Daddy why did you do this?<br />Why did you make me feel this way?<br />Daddy I'm only 13<br />but you treat me like <br />I'm the person you complain to<br />But Daddy I just wanted you <br />To treat me like your daughter<br /><br />Daddy all you ever did <br />Was scream at me and mommy<br />You accused Mommy of cheating<br />When she loved you so dearly<br />Daddy, you hurt me and mommy over and over again<br /><br />Daddy i'm sorry I killed myself<br />But I couldn't take it anymore<br />You put so much pressure on me<br />That it was nothing when I dug that knife into my vein<br />Daddy you will never see<br />What you did to Mommy and me<br /><br />Daddy I love you dearly<br />But you tore this family apart<br />Mommy and me were always crying<br />And then you would get angry<br />And you would scream and shout<br /><br />Daddy all you ever did was yell<br />And me and my sisters tried to talk to you<br />You thought all of this was Mommy's fault<br />But its not<br />Its yours<br /><br />Daddy I'm sorry I had to do this<br />But you caused me so much pain<br />I couldn't cry or yell<br />I had to act like I was tough<br />Without me Mommy and my sisters <br />Wouldn't have made it through<br /><br />Daddy if you don't stop <br />You will lose more then me<br />Because of you <br />I took my life<br />You should have known better <br />Then to lean on me. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fadingaways:316 2006-04-12T20:05:57Z 2006-04-12T20:05:57Z My Chemical Romance: I'm Not Okay( I promise) Cold and alone<br />Dark and depressed<br />She waits at home<br />dreading the minute<br />When he walks through that door<br />Wincing in pain<br />She limps up the stairs<br />Trying to hide<br />Wishing to die<br /><br />His fist hits her again<br />Her back into the door was slammed<br />She shows no fear<br />As she looks him in the eye<br />She raised her head, her head up high<br />Raising her voice, asking him why<br />He smacks her again<br />Dark blood on his hands<br />Her body limp on the floor<br />Her final wish granted<br />She wished she would die<br />Her life is now in the past<br /><br />Cold and alone<br />Dark and depressed<br />He sits at home<br />Dreading his past.